last post ever about L-O-V-E..

seriously. I've had it wit whatchamacallit..LOVE? hmm 2 weeks away from H..i admit..i had a hard time. Meeting new peeps were awesome..but the thot of H was there..lingering at the back of my mind. I don't believe I love H. THAT is FOR SURE. H went wit H's gf..it's all cool. I'm not sad about that.

Hmm all this while..I've felt like I just watched the game from the sidelines. Bff's being the talk of the town. No one cared for the girl standing next to her. Well that's what i thought. Until that girl walks alone and discovers her own rays of sun. Okay i like it better talking in 3rd person mode. lol. so the girl on the sidelines..discovers she is just as good as the other players on the field. But I believe, that girl is still scared to play again even when she knows she can do it.

Some say life is a game. But you aint competing with no one but yourself right? so what about this so called "LOVE". it's like a game inside a game. only you get hurt like 10 times than the normal hurt. right? wait wait this is off topic..*sorry just wasted like 10 seconds of your life there. =]

anywho..so in that two weeks..finding HER own light was actually miserable. I mean, it was sweet having been noticed..but people, if you already have someone..don't leave him or her..*okay i'm totally lying to myself..coz i do stick with what Ryan Seacrest's mom said.."Boy, if you are ever stuck between two lovers, go wit the second one. Because if you ever loved that first gal, you wouldnt have fallen in love wit the second one" or something like that. I'd like to translate this into BM.

BM translation of what Ryan's mom said:
"Kalau awk.." hmm wait wait..err.."Kalau awak xbley pilih antara dua wanita, pilih lah yg kedua kerana jika awak cintakan yg pertama, x akan punya awk jatuh cinta dgn yg kedua" lol does that make sense? seriously it annoys me like i feel like it's not HEARD ya know? leave who you have now if u fell in love wit a new person. why? coz you wouldnt have fallen for the new person if u were TRULY in love wit the first person in the first place. lol. seriously i can go on explaining this "quote" or..whatever that is left of it. lol. hmm..

so yeah. leave him/her if u find someone new. that is so evil. but you can always you know..drop it slowly..tell him/her slowly..you dont have to be so mean. haha.

so anyways..someone "diagnosed" that girl's heart. the girl who was watching from the sidelines. someone told her that she is definitely not ready for "LOVE". I have to agree. and she couldnt agree more! =] and that got me thinking so this whole time..all the "LOVE" during the teenage years was nothing compared to what I feel now. oops i mean what SHE feels now. lol.

So..she's not ready. she knows that. so her justification for S is that she is not ready. but she doesnt feel like it's fair for S coz she is ever so ready if H2 had proposed. But really is this what all those BFF felt while she was standing on the sidelines? and G is not even in the picture no more. All taken people can just go live happily ever after and leave her wit all the single ones please. LOL not that she would want any..just saying. =p

I'm tired of thinking about it. It if happens then it happens. If it doesn't then it doesn't. that's what he said when "diagnosing" her heart. thank you. anywho..pisces are too emotional anyways. and yes..we DO think TOO MUCH of things. dammit. dammit. dammit. whatever..i think the following painting best describe my feelings towards "LOVE"...okay that's it! no more! no more! the next posts shall not contain "LOVE" at all!!! dammit.

I have no idea who it's by..or what it's called..

xoxo